Interim (off the topic)

"When it rains, it pours."

So true.... I was depriving my sleep almost everyday so I can get stuff done. That was last month. I thought dark circles under my eyes were permanent... But I am getting at least 5-6 hours of healthy sleep nowadays. I look better and feel better. But I feel like my creativity is slightly going south.... I am not saying that artists have to beat up himself physically to sharpen his mental aspect (creativity), but there are some truth to it.

I used to compete in Martial Arts Tournament. I went through severe physical training. Also I was on much severer diet that makes even vegans run for their money. More I make myself physically exhausted, I realized my overall mental state got sharpened. I was thinking much more clearly and more aware of things I usually dismiss.

I was reading an article written by a writer who decided to take anti-depressant to curve his anger. After taking the pills for a period of time, he realized that he is much more calm and happier. But his creativity was noticeably decreased. I am not going to jump to conclusion and saying that artists have to suffer in order to be creative, but there is always this one question remains.

"Would I make art, even if I am fully satisfied of my life?"

But again, who is truly satisfied of his life? I don't know any. Do you?